Working Mama

Today marks one month since I officially started my new job ! Yay!

It feels great. It’s been a long and stressful journey but I am extremely thankful, appreciative of the opportunity that came my way and proud of myself for not giving up. I have now officially joined the #workingmama group and LORD it is HARD! I have gained so much respect for all these women out there that juggle between their careers, marriage/relationships, motherhood and self-care because it is a lot to handle!

Thank you, for believing in me. Thank God for teaching me patience and resilience. Last year I prayed for more strength and the challenges and hardships I have faced thus far definitely proved me that I am capable to overcome anything.

We can accomplish it all

I admit it, I still feel lost. I often doubt myself and my abilities to overcome this new challenge but that’s something we can all relate to. Truth be told, I am grateful i was able to stay at home for the first 10 months of my daughter’s life. The bond we have created, beyond sharing the same body for almost a year, is so strong and filled with love and awe that I can never regret this break.

The past four weeks have been quite challenging. The three of us had to readjust our routines, find and establish one that would work with our different schedules. For the first time ever we considered and hired a nanny to complement daycare. We’re still trying to figure it out and there sure isn’t a one solution-fits-all for situations like these.

As far as my personal goals, I am focusing my energy into establishing a career plan that will allow me to remain active and engaged in all the different parts that make me a WOMAN! I do question my decision daily to go to work while I would rather stay home with my baby. I am scared of missing out; scared not to be there when she needs me.

Anybody can be a role model

I received lots of encouragement and love from my friends and family starting this new journey. This made me realize that I had become a role model. To think that I have younger ladies in my circle telling me that I inspire them made me embrace my journey even more. While I don’t necessarily see myself as a leader in that sense, I am honored to have empowered them to pursue all of their dreams without limitations.

It is crucial for young girls and women to thrive at any levels of their lives. Walking away from the status quo and believing they can become whomever they want is something I want my daughter to believe and abide by ! You can have a successful career as well as a family and anything else that fuels us.

Regardless of your age or status, you can become a role model. Most importantly, we should always surround ourselves with people who push us; people that force us to get out of our comfort zones and embrace adversity as a push rather than a setback.

You make your own rules

I am African, Black, a Wife, a Mother and an aspiring Executive woman. My gender nor my culture or religion do not limit or define me. I am strong, successful and beautiful. This is my manifesto, my testimony. May this show you all what WE women are capable of everything  and we shall always go after we desire most!

The road to success is paved with many challenges and obstacles. The best ally we should always have is ourselves. A support system is good but easily becomes ineffective when we ourselves lack the drive and desire to realize our dreams.

Dream on. Keep at it and trust God.

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The Grey Zone

It’s been 10 weeks since I became a mom and what a wonderfully crazy ride. Between the sleepless nights, crazy messy hair and unfounded fights with my husband, I didn’t know what to think nor do. But guess what, we made it through.

You see, this is not something I can take back to the store if I don’t like it anymore nor give away to someone in need. Matter of fact it’s quite a serious commitment that I can’t back down from and I thought I was prepared but God no I wasn’t. I’ve been crying silently in the shower sometimes (when I could take one) trying to escape the frustration of not doing one thing right or being completely clueless.

I’ve been fighting and laughing with my husband over nonsense, while we both try to adjust to our new roles as parents at the same time as being a couple again. It’s been tough, it’s been stressful and scary but overall, it’s been amazing. Oyana is growing well and wayyy too fast. She is putting on all of her healthy weight and getting chubbier everyday! She is one happy baby that surprises us everyday.

On another note, I’ve been trying to get back to my old self. No pressure though. I yet have to get back to the gym and get a new membership so I can tone back my body. While I’ve been lucky to shed all of my baby weight and some extra pounds (thanks to breastfeeding), I lost my muscles and that will require some serious postpartum workout plan.

Work wise, I am still searching. Not as actively though as before because I want to enjoy my break at home taking care of my baby and travel a bit. But I am looking, because I don’t picture myself as a housewife only nor as a stay-at-home mom. I have more to offer and I have three degrees that I worked very hard on to get that need to be put to use.

I also am working/researching on some side projects (freelance most likely) close to my heart that will hopefully help me gain some experience and, stay up to date with my industry of interest. So if you need help or, know anybody that has some PR/Communications projects and opportunities, shoot me an email! Like seriously 🙂

Finally, I have taken a serious step back into my religious life, trying to regain a stronger and better connection with God and my spirituality. As a parent I believe it is important to also provide my children with spiritual guidance and protection. I therefore decided to observe lent this year, focusing on reducing stress and anxiety by limiting complains and unnecessary frustration caused by things I cannot control. I want to reconnect with my God, faithfully and completely, which requires lots of trust and self abandonment. It’s going to be hard, I know it already but, I am committed.

Once I figure out my routine with baby girl and re-establish a proper schedule for everything else in my life – fitness, work, relationship, social – the posting will become more regular on the blog. I know some of you may be disappointed with my absence or even the content of the blog right now but that’s where I am right now. And I will always try to remain as transparent as I can rather than making empty promises.

PS: More posts in French coming soon !